sooner or later everybody hurts you !

i am having mixed feelings. one side i am sad about whats going on, other side i am contended at whatever happened has happened for good. i took more than required and enough time to realize and make a decision. it cost me very precious things. i didn’t take care of my self, my ego, my feelings. i gave a damn to my brain. i hurt myself the most. i knew i was taken for granted, i was used but i let it go. the result is no better but bruises on my ego and scars on my feelings. my brain pissing me off and i am unable to concentrate on anything.

i have gone through many phases of a relationship. good and bad, happy and sad, fighting and commingling…………………the best is when you see truth in eyes and the worst is when your trust is broken.what hurts the most is when other person knows you and knowingly does a thing to tear you in pieces.

i wonder where i did wrong. perhaps giving one self to other is always wrong. our biggest mistake is to hand ourselves completely to other person and keeping no portion to ourselves.  which is why we are left alone, we cant gather the shattered pieces scattered on ground of our life. the game is of trust. without trust you cant make it and if u trust, it doesn’t make you nor it let you make yourself.

i have no complaints from myself, what i have seen is part of my experience. better would be if i remember this lesson and be careful otherwise i wont be able to forgive myself. i don’t have complaints from anyone as i am responsible for whatever i do. and what others do is not under my control.

but let me say it, everybody sucks you in the end. sooner or later everybody hurts you !