i am happy :)

there is not always dark likewise life is not always gloomy. i feel happy. i be happy too. and i feel it today. i have observed through life that things which are permanent give lasting happiness. things what we own serve more with sincerity & pleasure than what we don’t have. same applies to relationships; but we unfortunate human beings, always hanker after what we don’t have and most of the times when we can’t have it.

i have the most lovable family, cool friends and a loving fiance. i love them all. love of my family didn’t let me go astray or get spoiled like in many cases. but what i developed in me is to get everything i want, every person i feel for. no matter what. i never used a negative mean, i never followed a wrong path but i also got my every wish. this made me more confident at myself and my strengths. process of wishing and getting led me to a point where i forgot that it can lose something. i can’t have just everything. some things are not meant for me. not made for me. yes i got the jerk. i lost the one i loved the most. i couldn’t believe, i couldn’t stand, i couldn’t digest. i hated this happening. my world depressed. i fell in the deep well of gloom and disappointment where i left myself alone and dejected. i forgot God. i had complaints. but God didn’t forget me because He never does. He always knows more and better. He always keeps good in store. He always gives more in return when He takes something. and the Best part is He shows it and proves it one way or the other; as whatever happens, happens for a reason. He showed me what i missed was not good for me. i didn’t believe but He proved to me and let me believe.

Now where i stand, i accept what i have is the best i could. what i don’t was never for me. I am happy God took those things away from me. they were more hurting to be with than to live without. ashamed of myself, i turned to God and asked to embrace me, accept me with my sin and revive my faith. He did. He took me back. The same lesson i learn. I learn from HIM for the people around. i don’t have a cruel heart. it’s not my God’s lesson. i forgive people but i don’t forget. This keeps me going with my faith and remembering what i pass through. I am all open to who comes back to me for good.

i am happy today, i am living day, I am happily living today. i am all for those who are for me, for who i have, for what i own. I have peace.

and i thank to God for being with me and giving me contentment for my life.

Allah give me peace .. ameen !